Necessary Torture

Dear Uche,

It is amazing to me how much I still miss you every single time you are busy with work or some activity with a friend or Nessa. It's been nearly 5 months of daily convos, and it still requires such restraint not to double and triple text you all day.

There's something about our conversations—about you—that puts me at ease. There's no coincidence that my mood and mental health have been so stable since you came into my life. A sense of calmness befalls me whenever I think about you.

The yearning I have to talk to you might actually be good for me. It might drive me crazy, but it also makes every moment with you even sweeter. It makes the relationship feel so new, even though we are going on 5 months (but really 7 years of knowing of each other). I almost need it now—though it tortures me to no end—it makes every day feel like I’m counting down to something beautiful.

I just love you so much. I love who you are and how you make me feel. I can't wait to see you in 8 days.

Xoxo,

Vic